"Search My Heart" by Hillsong United, that is what I woke up with trying to play in my head, I had to sit there a moment and try to find the words as they were unclear; I didn't know the song as well as I would like and so I had to work a bit to find some lyrics I knew. After playing the tune a bit and listening to the muffled words in my mind I finally got to the part where they sing, "Without you I am nothing." Suddenly I knew a few of the other bits and pieces as well, but I wanted to dwell on this part here. The whole of the song is good but in particular I want to recognize how little I am.
As the song says, I am nothing. My life is so far without worth without God that I am in debt just to be alive. I owe everything and have nothing and so here I am with a negative value on my very being. But this is where the beauty of it all is. You see, I may be worth so very little on my own, but with my Lord, my God, my Savior I am worth so much more. It isn't my life that brings value, but the life of Jesus that was surrendered to bring worth to mine. Now I am a child of God, do you fathom that, believer? You are a child of God, a King, and not just a king, the King of Kings, the Lord of Lords, you get to call Him Father and ask of Him whatever you desire! In His gracious wisdom He doesn't always give what we ask, but we still get to ask and that is a big deal!
So though it is true that my life is nothing without God, it does not matter, for now that I have God I can now live! I am free to worship Him, to follow His will, to recognize the truth in the rest of the words of the song. My prayer today is to remember this, that God is my everything and that my desire is to follow His ways and to worship Him who saved me from the grave.
